Insomnia

Once again, I cannot sleep. And when I can’t sleep, I eat. You might think, how foolish. I do. Sometimes it helps. Other times, though, it doesn’t.

I don’t know why I can’t fall asleep at bedtime. It wasn’t always this way. This is relatively new. I can’t relax. Despite Mirapex, I suffer nightly from Restless Legs Syndrome, or what I think is RLS. It is a very unpleasant ticklish sensation in my legs that makes me feel I must move them. I get it with or without caffeine.

I’m not even hungry. I eat to pass the time. I eat to feel sleepy. I eat to numb the tickle. I’ve got to do something else while I’m up.

Maybe I should see my PCP about this. The Mirapex isn’t really working.

So today didn’t go well. Let me clarify: it did until it didn’t. I went way over budget after bedtime. Those Goya cookies, granola bars.

It won’t do any good to shame myself. The best I can do is start over tomorrow, maybe pre-track everything.

Maybe I should try some melatonin. It works for Desmond.

Coming up with a game plan for the next three days is probably my best bet if I want to get back down enough to keep this process moving.