This is My Life

Up, up, up. As it turns out, yesterday’s weight was not a one-day fluke. Today I’m even heavier, and my pants are tight.

Maybe I’m premenstrual. It seemed to come from nowhere. One day I was so much, and the next day I had magically gained four pounds. That’s the only thing I can think to explain it.

Anyway, I’m going to shop thoroughly this week so that we have plenty of dinners to fall back on even if we forget to take anything out so we don’t have to order or go out. This is the most important week of the entire ever for me not to mess up.

Shopping List

For Everyone:

• 90% lean ground beef

• Filet mignon?

• Chicken thighs (boneless, skinless)

• Pork chops

• Salad mix (2)

• Grape tomatoes (2)

• Cucumber (2)

• Ravioli

• Low-calorie bread

• Lettuce

• Tomato

• Bacon

• Eggs

• Apples

• Strawberries

• Cashews

Everyone Except Me:

• Granola bars

• Doritos

• Jello

• Popsicles

Me:

• Ricotta cheese

• Cool Whip (2)

• High protein oatmeal

• Creamer (2)

• Cheese sticks

• Protein shakes: plant based

• Pudding

The protein shakes and pudding would actually be in preparation for next week. But I’m wondering if I shouldn’t start with the protein shakes early. Food’s not getting me very far right now. Maybe I should just make it easier on myself. I will have to think about this.

So this is my life right now. Deciding what and when to eat. Actually, this has been my life since I was nine years old. It’s just that now there’s more at stake—no pun intended.